A week ago I deleted my Spotify account because I noticed I hadn't used it in months. For 19 years I listened to music for many hours every day. But now I haven't listened to anything in months?
Quitting my musical career was a decision I never thought I'd make. And when I finally made that step I was sure I was gonna miss parts of it. But I don't. For me it went from loving music and creating with all my heart to feeling forced to do it in a specific way and to lose track of why I liked it in the first place. My best memories from my career have never been big concerts, recording albums or anything like that. My best memories have been when I've been able to express my true self and being able to sing from my heart - and as Adele said, for ears, not for eyes.
First I didn't want to write about my experiences with music at all, but then I realized that even though it's not my work or main focus anymore, even though I don't even listen to music at the moment, it will always be a big part of me. And therefor I'd like to show you a video that pretty much no one has ever seen - me (for the last time I can remember) singing my heart out with my lovely friend Maja. It was a closed event for friends only and I had as little as 20 people in the audience watching me and yet this was a moment of true happiness for me.
As for today I haven't sang a note in months. But I know I will get back to this happiness and love for music at some point in my life. Never as a career again, but just like this in the video right here... :)