Calorie anxiety - I stopped counting calories sometimes during the summer when I was focusing 100% on my recovery and getting rid of my eating disorder habits. Since then I haven't really been paying attention to the amount of calories I eat but now I found myself being anxious over the fact that I think I get too little calories a day at the moment. What's positive is that my weight still has gone up slowly but steady, so I'm pretty sure that mini me is growing and everything is good, but the too small calorie intake is showing on my energy level and the fact that I'm dizzy a lot. So for the first time in 6 months I'll actually count calories for a couple of days just to see how much more I need to start eating and finding a balance.
Vacation cravings - I'd do anything to get on a plane to Bali right now. I'm in need of sunlight, a cozy hotel and good food so much I can feel it in my whole body. But I've promised myself not to travel anymore during pregnancy since our California trip was very rough on me physically. And now there's not many weeks left until I'm not allowed to fly, at least not any long distance flights, so it'll have to wait. So instead I'm spending time planning vacations for the rest of this year, when the baby is born. But I have some fears for that as well - anyone with good advice on where, how and when to travel with a baby?
My baby isn't vegan - I'm craving non-vegan ice cream, chocolate and CHEESE all the time lately. It feels so weird since I've been vegan for so long and I've never had any cravings for non-vegan food. None. But now ever since the second trimester started I've been craving some non-vegan stuff and it's really hard to know if I should follow my vegan instincts or my cravings. Otherwise I don't really have any food cravings (yet) which is a bit weird.