I’m having breakfast at the airport lounge as I’m writing this post. Somehow I’m kind of excited to spend the coming 12 hours in an airplane. First of all it’s super relaxing to just put the phone on airplane mode and have 12 hours for yourself, without checking Instagram, answering messages etc. And then it’s also pretty cozy to eat, nap & watch movies on repeat the whole time. (This is actually the first time in history I’m looking forward to a flight)
There’s something about vacation that makes it easier to eat. The last time I was in LA I constantly counted calories and thought about how much or little I ate. But at the same time it was the last period of time I was able to eat quite normally before my relapse got worse. New places, different kind of food and no routines make it much easier to eat. So it’s also easier to ”allow” yourself to take that extra meal or eat that dessert you never would at home.
Now I don’t have the same struggles as I had before, but I still feel the same relief of being on vacation and not getting stuck in any food routines etc. So I have a feeling this vacation will do me some good!
Another thing is that THE PODCAST IS COMING OUT TOMORROW!! Oh my. It actually feels a bit melancholic to be in LA when the pod is being released. And a bit funny. You will hear more about that in the podcast as well. But this trip will sure be 100% different from my last one.
I’m kind of nervous about my family’s and friends’ reactions to the podcast to be honest. It’s a whole other thing when you’re a person in my surrounding while I’m going through everything and then to actually listen to the whole story and hear all details you had no idea existed. I’m very open with my family and I talk about a lot with them. But when it comes to this story, there’s no one that have heard all the details. So I think it’s going to be a more or less chocking experience for everyone that listens, no matter if they know me or don’t.
Now I’m gonna grab one last toast before our boarding starts! Have a great week loves.
