If you've listened to the podcast or read the articles you probably know that I did concerts even though I was at the eating disorder clinic - and even though it was against the clinic's laws. I've gotten a lot of questions about this and therefor I want to bring up a very scary thing about anorexia (and other eating disorders).
Many people are suffering from eating disorders that can't be seen on the surface. The biggest percentage of those who are struggling with bulimia has a normal BMI and the symptoms are often not visible for people around. The same goes with many other eating disorders, like orthorexia for example. Anorexia is often known as a disease that is very visible since most (!) of the people who are struggling with it are very underweight. But having anorexia doesn't mean you have to look like a skeleton. There were many people at the eating disorder clinic that had been in and out from the clinic for a longer period of time, most of them were chronically ill. They said that the most frustrating thing about getting home from the clinic was when people said "oh you have gained weight, you are finally free from anorexia" when in reality gaining weight does not mean recovery.
When I was taken to the clinic my weight was dangerously low and I looked like crap. But even a crazy low weight and a sick face can be hidden a bit. At least you can hide the worst of it. And therefor I want to share the following with you, to maybe give you even a little glimpse of how anorexia doesn't always come with a sign on your forehead.
The pictures below are taken on the SAME day. The picture to the left is how I looked 90% of the time when I was hospitalized and the picture to the right is how I looked when I got to go on my gigs. Do I look dangerously ill on the picture to the right? No. I actually look pretty healthy. And this is what make-up, the right clothes, (some stuffed bras) and a fake smile can do.