(Some questions were in Swedish and Finnish so I've translated them to English here on the blog)
When did you find out you were pregnant?
In week 4, so pretty much as early as possible! It was literally the best morning in my life (so far).
How did your family react?
I think all of us (me included) were shocked (in a positive way) that I got pregnant so fast, because I was still many kg's away from my normal weight and still very tiny at the time I got preggy. But the whole family was obviously almost as happy as me and my husband!
Was it planned?
Yes. I think that many people will have a prejudice when it comes to this questions though, maybe because of my age? But yes, almost immediately after we got married we also got a baby fever and we wanted a child more than anything. Then again, since no one thought it would be possible for my body to carry a child in a very long time, it was obviously the best surprise ever that our baby decided to be a fighter and come anyways. <3
How has your first trimester been??
Honestly, my first trimester was HARD. My morning sickness started in week 6 and it was brutal. I spent many days mainly on the bathroom floor and I couldn't sleep because I was just nauseous 24/7. The scariest part was that I needed to gain weight and eating was the last thing on my mind while feeling sick all the time, but I started drinking meal replacements and it worked pretty well for a while. I got two different medicines for my nausea after some time and it helped me a bit since it took away the worst of it all. For about 6 weeks everything made me so sick I thought I was going to die, so I couldn't look at a screen (phone/computer), no one could eat anything in our apartment because different smells made it unbearable and I basically just laid in bed for these weeks, not doing anything other than focusing on not throwing up. But the thing is that now, when I'm lucky enough to not have that morning sickness anymore, I think "ah, it wasn't that bad" even though I honestly thought I was dying at some points haha. It's funny how our brain works with pain and bad memories. It literally took me 2 weeks to forget how bad I had felt for many many weeks. But I guess that's a good thing!
Apart from that it was very hard for me to believe this tiny creature of ours was real at first, before my belly got a little bump and I was able to actually see our baby through the ultrasounds. And I do think that the first trimester is hard for all moms because your body goes through so much and yet you can't really tell that there's an actual human being in you yet. After our last ultrasound this Monday I've pretty much been staring at our baby 24/7 haha. It feels SO MUCH more concrete when you can see the baby.
Do you know if it's a boy or a girl? Do you have a preference?
We don't know yet! We'll be able to find out in January and we definitely want to know, but we don't have any preferences. Our only wish is to have a healthy and happy child.
Is it hard to have an eating disorder and be pregnant? You're so strong I'm a big fan.
Thank you!! <3 When I got pregnant I was still a bit underweight and I was too tiny to go through a pregnancy so I got very much support and help and now after the first trimester I'm actually at an okay weight (yay). I mean, now I look at photos from the first weeks of pregnancy where I had abs and skinny legs and of course there are moments when I feel like an elephant with my tiny bump and not that skinny body anymore. But I will not let my eating disorder ruin any part of being pregnant and the joy of it all. I'm still pretty tiny aka. I haven't gained that much weight yet and my belly is still tiny compared to what it's gonna be in some months, so it hasn't been that hard yet since the changes in my body are still pretty small. I'm sure there will be moments when it feels hard but I have always admired moms and how strong they are. And I'm so set on having that same pride when it comes to my own body as well. Abs? Ok well I'm growing a baby in my uterus sucker. That's pretty much the mindset I'll have to have not the fall into some bad pattern with hatred towards my mommy body.
Where are you going to give birth?
Aaaah we don't know yet. But either Finland or Sweden!
Thank you for all the love and support I've gotten this week. <3 Today I'm up to 100 000 readers this week WHAT??! You guys are just amazing. All these questions are from DM's I've gotten. There are many more questions I'd like to answer, so I'll maybe do another one like this soon! Big love.