I was up half the night with strong stomach pain but fell asleep around 9 in the morning and woke up half past 12 and felt okay. I called my maternity clinic mostly to get a confirmation on that everything was okay and that it’s completely normal to have that sort of pain. But the reaction was the opposit and they told me I have to meet a doctor immediately if the pain starts again. And it did.
So a couple of hours later I was directed to the Women’s Hospital in Helsinki where they said the pain I’m experiencing is contractions. My first thought was that you’re not supposed to have contractions in week 22 but I’ve also read about babies that have been born this early so I definitely got worried. I had to do every possible check and I was in a lot of pain but worse than that, I was so scared for mini. When we finally after lots of hours at the hospital got to do an ultrasound and see the baby I felt a bit better. Baby boy was doing just fine in there and had no worries at all. Then we checked all other signs of an this early starting labor but everything seemed okay there too for now. They still can’t tell me why I’m having these contractions but we’ll just have to follow the situation and do check ups.
Honestly I thought I was going to have a mental breakdown this evening because it feels like there’s constantly something going on during my pregnancy and I can’t relax at all anymore. I’ve cried so many times today and I don’t even know why anymore, I’m just so tired and would like to fast forward the rest of pregnancy so I can enjoy my baby boy here and not having to worry all the time.
Spoiler alert: I didn’t have a mental breakdown (yet) because there’s also 100 good things about pregnancy that somehow keeps me (a bit) sane. Feeling his tiny kicks after a day like this really means about everything! Now I’ll try to get some sleep and see what tomorrow brings. After all I’m only grateful that nothing was wrong with mini and that I have such incredible people around me that keeps me going. Going through all this without these people would feel close to impossible. Big love. <3