There's been a lot of questions about wether I'm still struggling with eating disorders and how it affects my pregnancy. I feel like this is such an important subject and I want to bring it up and I want to be honest with you.
My body wasn't in the best place yet when I got pregnant and my weight was pretty low, but not dangerously low. At the preggy checks they were very strict with me gaining weight and eating enough, both because it takes a lot for your body to carry a child and also because the baby needs nutrition. And from the moment I found out that I'm having a baby I haven't once thought about wether I eat too much or how many calories I have. I've only focused on being healthy and keeping my baby healthy.
But it hasn't been that easy at all times, because my body isn't yet that used to eating big portions and five times a day. So there's been many times where this has been a problem, but never because I haven't wanted to eat. But because my body has had a hard time adjusting to my new meal plan.
Now I'm not gonna lie, I still have some days and moments where it feels hard to accept that my body is changing. But I don't feel that same hatred towards my complexes and body that I did before. For me, being pregnant has mostly lead to good thoughts about my body and made it easier to cure the ill thoughts. I really hope this will last throughout the whole pregnancy and after that as well.
My main wish and what I'm aiming for is that there won't be any body negativity in our home. Especially not when the baby is here. My mom has never been the type of mom who stands infront of the mirror and complains about this or that and I think that's so important for a child. There's enough body stress and shitty ideals in our society as it is, so the last thing I want is for my child to see that at home as well.
Have a great weekend loves!