Hi guys. There's a lot going on right now and I've been feeling pretty overwhelmed about everything so I've been a bit less active on social media if you've noticed. I've been trying to focus on myself and trying to enjoy the situation I'm in. And I've tried to eat better and not feel anxious about the body changes that are happening - but right now that isn't going too well, so I'm really trying to focus on my wellbeing in front of everything else at the moment.
For some weeks now I've been going back and forth about this offer I got to be a part of a documentary series in Sweden. It's a great and meaningful series that I really think help a lot of people with whatever they are going through. It was super hard not to answer yes right away because the concept is so good and definitely needed on TV. But I've taken my time to really think it through and I know that it's too much for me right now to give such a big piece of myself to everyone, when I really need to be focusing on myself and my family. Anyways, I'm pretty sure I'll be doing something similar later in life, maybe sooner than I think now, but right now I know that my number one priority is to make the best of this pregnancy and prepare myself on becoming a mother.
This morning when I finally came with my last answer, that was no, I still had the urge to just change my mind and write that I'm going to be a part of the series. I haven't really figured out why it's so hard to say no but I guess it has something to do with that I've always wanted to be a part of a show like this, and accepting that my life situation isn't the best for being a part of it is hard. And not only that, but I know it would take a lot of strength and feelings to participate and at the moment I don't feel that strong to be honest.
Apart from this I've spent most of my time reading books lately. I really need to start reading books about babies soon, because I honestly have no idea how things are supposed to work the first couple of months. I always think it's an infinity left of pregnancy, but now I'm realizing that half of pregnancy has gone in just two weeks, and then it's only 20 more weeks until the little one arrives. Damn, I really need to start reading those books now!!
Have a great day loves. <3